I need god to help me..

Sometimes i get in the mood to sin. I mean i know everyone does it, but why can i just simply justify the fact that i do it. Everytime is just another excuse and another letdown for me. I want to read God's word more and maybe i need to start being strict about it. I sit and read all other kinds of books yet, i am unable to read God's love letter to me. How repulsive am i? God, i hope you can find a way to forgive me and to show me where you are and help me in my time of desire to sin. I love you dear lord and i feel i am failing you. help me, please?